Happy

For my 32nd birthday I gave myself a gift;

Acceptance

 

I have hated so many things about myself for so long. I knew it was making me miserable and soon my children would catch on to all my insecurities and it would effect them too.

 

How could I teach them they are perfect and exactly how they should be if I wasn't believing that myself.

 

I compared myself to all the other "Wonder Mom's" and beat myself up because I am a terrible baker, loathe scrapbooking and can't sew to save my life. I pictured my children's lives as having a void because they got a degenerate mother.

 

I know I have written things like this before, but this time

 

I Mean it! 

 

I feel it inside that this time is different.

 

We have been commanded to exercise and eat right.

Not to be a size 6

I like eating fresh healthy food and I love the endorphins I get from working out. I love feeling strong and seeing muscles when I work out.

I need to not get discouraged when the numbers on the scale aren't what I want to see.

 

I saw something on pinterest that said something to the effect of

"The only thing getting in your way is the idea of how it should be"

 

I WAS CAUSING my unhappiness.

 

Not Rob, my family, the gospel.

 

ME

 

I am in charge here and I get to say what "perfect" is for me.

 

My idea of crafting is a hot glue gun

 

My favorite cookies come in a tube

 

My favorite meals are cooked in a crockpot

 

My idea of scrapbooking is sticking pictures in a photo album and putting on some stickers.

 

There is a scene in Friends (yes, the TV show) Where Monica is taking a dance class and the teacher says "You are doing it all wrong" and she says "At least I am doing it!"

 

Success is in the trying!

 

Try to be your best

 

Exercise to be HEALTHY not SKINNY

 

Understand the "WHY" you are doing what you are doing.

 

So, I went and bought some new clothes, accessories, and shoes because I am no longer willing to wait for "when I"

"When I" may never happen and I deserve

 

Happiness NOW!

 

Celebrate where you are.

Enjoy the little things you do each day that bring joy.

 

Celebrate life!

Dance in the rain, play with your kids, make sugar cookies from a tube if you must just

LIVE!

 

Celebrate others where they are.

When you see a chubby girl at the gym, or playing with her kids running around out of breath, instead of looking down on what she is not, think

"At least she's doing it"

I am committing today to accept my flaws, and love who and where I am TODAY!

I am going to see myself as Heavenly Father sees me.

He made me how I am and maybe I drew the chubby straw, but I I need to focus on making me my best self and not worry about what or who I am not.

Now you go out and Do your best too!